Does God exist?

Dear world

I come from a Christian family from India. My parents have strong faith on Jesus for the past many years. And me being their daughter was also a girl with lots of devotion towards God. I never questioned the existence of God, maybe because I was just too scared that he might punish me.

All went fine until I started staying in hostel. I met a friend during these days who was an atheist. This friend is someone whom I respect a lot in my life. He managed to make me question the very existence of my belief.

Was Jesus real? Was christianity a good option for me? Is there a God? Even if there is a God will he be like what the church says?

These were just of my some doubts... I started avoiding masses and rosaries slowly. I was soo confused, like all the faith I had these many years just went off somewhere. I didnt know what was right and what was wrong. Sometimes I would pray to God and tell him to come and tell me personally who he was. I didnt want to be that person who followed wrong rules.. I didnt want to be that person who would lose their life to something that wasnt real.

I wanted to make up my mind on what to do. I believed in the miracles happening in Christianity. But me being me, I started doubting them too. I didnt know what to do. Jesus was different for different people.

But in all the interpretations he was just that lovable and great God. And I used to wonder if he is soo real, then how much would we be hurting him.?

And I also wanted to tell Jesus that , wasnt it time that he send us another prophet or someone to build up our faith. He left his human body 2000 years ago. We dont even remember what happened yesterday, how can he expect us to remember all that? Who knows if anyone would have played with our history or not.

On top of that came the cases against the catholic churches, like the one recently happening in Kerala. It made me lose my faith and hope on the church even more.

Also I respected the priest and nuns soo much until I started staying in convent hostels. Their behaviour was soo bad that I saw non Christians hating them. I didnt know how to make others understand. Later my family used to say that, these nuns are behaving this was when they see us enjoy the youth which they missed during their lifetime  as nuns.

I felt really bad about this. Some nuns just became nuns because of their families struggles. Also they couldn't return to their homes as it would put shame on their families and no one would be ready to look after them or get them married off.

I still dont know what to do? Isint God seeing all that is happening now in this world. There were times in my life where I believed that Jesus is the one True God. But right now everything is complicated. But this wont stop me from being a good person, as I dont want to hurt anyone from my side.

It's just that if there is a heaven or hell, then I dont want to be that person who goes to hell. Because hell is forever. So is heaven.

That's all for now!!

Sarah Sha

Tia Bhuva

Dear world

I would like to share about some person whom I have been following on insta for long. Someone who inspired me to think that maybe saree is actually a really cool way of clothing.

Tia Bhuva. She has a site of her own where she sells saree, can can skirt and underskirt. Nothing great ya? But just wait....

Initially these videos used to come in the search page of my insta where one pretty girl would wear a saree soo easily and look even more beautiful. She used to have the perfect curls and the perfect pleats. Lol. Something that I always found difficult to make when I helped my mom wear her saree. I knew those videos were fast forwarded, but they were different from other saree tutorials.

Later I realized that she was using a different peticote undershirt. It was what made the saree look more figure hugging. It also gave a new look to the whole saree .

Something else that I loved was her skirts. This was before I knew what can can even meant. They are just these skirts that have layers of net underneath them to make it even more wonderful to wear.

Later I went through her site: tiabhuva.com only to discover that she actually sells all this and she does this from Canada. Me being a non fashionista, and not someone who had such a high budget couldnt buy them. But I did some window shopping online and believe me, they are just awesome.

And what more I learnt about her:

1. She is a srilankan origin canadian citizen(i guess).
2. She , her parents and husband stays in Canada
3. She is pregnant currently and hid that from her followers for quite some time ,until recently. (Her life, her privacy and I respect that) congrats to the couple!!
4. She runs a successful business on her site.
5. She inspires every other women to stand on their feet .

Thanks Tia for all the inspirations.

Bye

Sarah sha

Talking to fools

Dear world

A famous quote says that when we argue with fools, we are actually wasting our time and it does no good to anyone. That's actually true..

Recently I was arguining with one of my friends on a controversial topic. It was something about her belief. And the funny part was that, I knew more than her on the same topic. And  she kept on using the same point again and again and managed to keep me quiet for some time. I wanted to tell her that what she was quarelling on was utter stupidity, but she didnt want to hear it.

And I knew it was better to keep quiet than go through her wrath.

During such a time, one becomes a fool when we dont have the necessary knowledge. When quarelling on something, please do your research first and then fight over it. Because later you don't want to regret about whatever you told.

We indians(actually everyone should) need to read newspaper more . And get involved in debates and all. Right now the condition in India is soo bad that, one wrong word from you, and it becomes someones truth. People become a dangerous mob upon hearing some fake whatsapp message. Where are the people's senses?

We all need to know the truth, to know if something is true or not. A person who doesnt know the rules cant identify when someone breaks these rules. And by just education, one cannot have all the knowledge. For that the conventional way of newspaper is the best. But we need to be aware on whether or not, we are reading a good paper or not. We actually actually have a hand on deciding what goes in as input to our brain. So let it be only truth.

I study a professional course in chennai right now and still most of my friends dont read news. Like for example this is what they say:

"Self driving cars are available in the market now and people are actually buying it now" - I dont think that's true yet as companies are now also racing against time to complete their testing.

"Government of India decides whatever rules the supreme court takes" - rubbish (not really right)

Sometimes I dont know what I feel about them. If you ask them which is the currently running movie, then they would know... but they wouldn't know what is the controversial news right now.

And please don't put in your stupid comment on something you don't know. It just makes people lose faith in you.

I plan on putting a few more posts these days as it is Sunday and there is leave on October 2 too.

And I hope the government and social media giants decides on how to curb spreading on fake news online.
Hope they solve the issue as it has hurt many already.

Thats all for now

Sarah sha

Hey world!!

Dear world

I am Sarah from India. I am studying in school and now you all are going to see the world through my eyes. You all must have seen the world through many people's eyes through the social media and movies. But now for the first time,  you are all going to see through me. Hope you don't get angry, but instead listen to me. Please have the patience as I am not an expert at telling stories.

I would tell you soon about my life, my family, my friends and most of all : everything.

But to keep them all and myself safe, I will need to wear the invisible cloak which Harry potter gave me personally. (And ya no use feeling jealous about it).

I started this as an assignment for an online course I started doing. Hope this helps me in completing that course too. I shall try writing frequently. And not just copy contents from other sites, like before. (Ya I did have a blog before this too)

That's all for now. Bye !!